It’s such a powerful, slightly terrifying feeling when you realize ” The Idol” if you life can be you worst enemy. Our parents, our mothers are hell bent over giving us, “The Child” – ” The Life” . They become the over compensating parent/ teacher. The ones who teaches us how to cheat, still and be greedy. They lead us to believe in order to defeat unhappiness we must over compensate.
That’s not life nor love, just loathe, constant questioning and fear